The pain is here, let’s walk it out


I started to feel slight cramps on my lower abdomen last night. I took 1 (200mg) ibuprofen so I could sleep. Yesterday was 4 days before my next period. I started to feel anxious. I think my condition is getting worse because my cycle is getting shorter.

I’m tired to feel anxious every day when it’s almost my period time. I’m tired with the pain. I’m loosing my confident, I’m loosing my freedom. My confident and freedom to go out anytime without the fear that I will have sudden cramps and leave me stuck outside the house with so much pain. 

My uterus started to swollen last night, I know it’s coming soon. The pain is here… not the worst but it’s here.

I’m going to walk to groceries store now, it will be about 2.5km. I want to face my fear. But with preparation of course, some Ibuprofen and Swiss rolls in my bag, just in case I lost this battle and have to squat in pain in the middle of the road. God, please give me strengthπŸ™πŸΌ


So, I successfully walked to the groceries shop. In 10 minutes after I started to walk ,the pain escalated. I ate a protein bar and 1 (200mg) ibuprofen — I can’t take ibuprofen without food, it hurts my stomach–. I kept walking although I was in pain.

I finished my groceries shopping but the pain is getting worse, I feel like I’m going to faint. So I’ll sit here for a moment while waiting the ibuprofen reacting. There’s KFC downstairs where I can hang out, but really what can I eat there?

Pain… Pain… Go away, come again another day πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”

PD -4: Good Morning!


Good morning!

I woke up with a great feeling today. My body feels warm, the same as sensation that I feel after yoga or exercise. Man, I feel good!

Today is day 4 before period. On my last period, I didn’t feel any pain at this day, I hope it will be the same. When 2 days ago I started feel pain on my back, I was really concern. Why? Because that’s usually a sign that the next period will be the bad one πŸ˜” This is how you live when you have Adenomyosis, you’ll be very anxious when it’s almost the time of the month.

My breakfast. A Banana, a kiwi, and an apple.