The pain is here, let’s walk it out


I started to feel slight cramps on my lower abdomen last night. I took 1 (200mg) ibuprofen so I could sleep. Yesterday was 4 days before my next period. I started to feel anxious. I think my condition is getting worse because my cycle is getting shorter.

I’m tired to feel anxious every day when it’s almost my period time. I’m tired with the pain. I’m loosing my confident, I’m loosing my freedom. My confident and freedom to go out anytime without the fear that I will have sudden cramps and leave me stuck outside the house with so much pain. 

My uterus started to swollen last night, I know it’s coming soon. The pain is here… not the worst but it’s here.

I’m going to walk to groceries store now, it will be about 2.5km. I want to face my fear. But with preparation of course, some Ibuprofen and Swiss rolls in my bag, just in case I lost this battle and have to squat in pain in the middle of the road. God, please give me strengthπŸ™πŸΌ


So, I successfully walked to the groceries shop. In 10 minutes after I started to walk ,the pain escalated. I ate a protein bar and 1 (200mg) ibuprofen — I can’t take ibuprofen without food, it hurts my stomach–. I kept walking although I was in pain.

I finished my groceries shopping but the pain is getting worse, I feel like I’m going to faint. So I’ll sit here for a moment while waiting the ibuprofen reacting. There’s KFC downstairs where I can hang out, but really what can I eat there?

Pain… Pain… Go away, come again another day πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”

Nov PD2: My back is killing me!


Yes, my back is killing me!

Yesterday the pain was manageable from morning until around 5pm. Light medium pain on my back and cramps in the morning and afternoon. I took 2 ibuprofen, 1 at 4 AM and another one at 10am. I thought the pain will be lessen at night that’s why I only took my daily Chinese medicine. But I was wrong, around 6 pm I felt that the pain escalating, I took 1 ibuprofen but it was too late. My back was so hurt, I felt that it was going to break, like someone stabbing my back over and over again. The hot water bag that usually ease the pain didn’t help at all. I couldn’t even feel the heat, the pain was too severe for me. I was rolling on my bed, crying for hours… waiting for the pain to pass.. oh my adeno… you’re really tortured me 😭😭😭

Nov PD1: Period Day 1


It has been more than 6 months since I wrote my last post. I decided to be more active posting about my condition. I want to be more open about my pain. Many women out there have Adenomyosis just like me, I want to share my experience so they know, they are not alone!

Day 1 of period was yesterday. The period started around 1 AM. I experienced cramps and back pain. I went to the kitchen to make hot water to fill my hot water bag. I ate a wholewheat biscuit and a banana, then I took 1 (200mg) ibuprofen. I went back to my bed and trying to go back to sleep. I think I fell asleep around 2 AM.

The bleeding on my first day of period was very heavy but without clots. The cramps and back pain was bad, I couldn’t wake up from my bed because of it. But not as bad as last month. I didn’t cry. So I can say the pain scale was about 7/10. The pain from my back radiated to my butt and my right leg (7/10). I couldn’t feel my toes for some time because of the pain. I also felt light nausea (3/10).

I didn’t feel like to eat on day 1 of my period. I just drank lots of water, 1/2 of lemon + 1 tbsp blackstrap molasses + warm water in the morning, and ate fruits and whole wheat biscuits.

For medicines, I took Chinese medicine that my local gyno gave me + Ayurvedic medicine + 4 ibuprofen.